saddest night....

i'm feeling damn terrible....& upset now...that i have again & again...................... hurt bao....
why.....why......why.........i owez jus cant control my temper....i jus too care & mind about what he said about me....yea, i know whatever i have say now...nobody will believe & trust me...the more explanations that i gave,,,,the more bao will hate me....actually i dont meant to said that...i just feeling so hurt when he mentioned that i'm old...it is really hurt me inside....yea..i'm an old lady with bad tempere...no wonder bao also cant stand at me....i nvr meant to do that twd him.....
sometimes i asked myself.....if i really love him...why i wanted to hurt him....i duno...i really duno...BUT...i know that..i nvr meant to make him hurt & sad....
i'm over stress recently over my works.....i wanted to work hard...coz..i myself know the reason to work hard....i dont meant to c him so sad...& tired...
i know....i'm not the one he willing & wish to share & work hard in the future.....but i just wish that at least....i have the chance to work hard together wit him now...i'm really appreciate the chances....i jus wish to share all his happy.....unhappy....stress & everything......

" i know i may not be the one u wish to being together forever in ur life...but i wish that i could be the one beside u...when u needed someone & helpless....even it is only for an hour..."


If you wanna know how much i love u, try to catch rain drops, the ones u miss is how much i love u...
until it flood up my heart & there no more space for other only U......(this quote is owez only for U....now & forever)
i'm thousand sorry for everything......i'm a failure in my life....to treat u bad...even i've really trying hard.....i jus owez lost control...but i never wanted to hurt u....